I left the United States Navy in October of 2009 after 10 years of service to follow the call of God into ministry. I have been in full time ministry now for a little over a year and I have to say…it is hard.
I did a lot of difficult things in the Navy, mentally, emotionally and physically, but this last year in Ministry has been a difficulty of the deeper sort…spiritual. I suppose I should have known that the enemy would have been none to pleased when one decides to dedicate his life to the service of the Lord and the preaching of the gospel, yet experience remains the most effective teacher.
Lately I’ve just felt weighed down with the mounting responsibilities at the church, with support raising, and of course, with being a husband. I’ve come to see the darker more sinister sins that go on in my head and heart. I see how much I really care for the approval of others, and how quickly I want to run from a situation when it gets tough. Yet, there is hope.
Jesus Christ, son of God, has redeemed me. He has given me a new heart, he has caused me to follow him. He is my strength, my light, and my song. He has said, you are a new creation in Me, be done with the old. I have been praying lately that God would remain my number one. It is so easy to get lost in the flood of emails and tasks and people to care for, yet Christ is my source.
Someone once said, “Christians are like the nails, the harder you hit them, the deeper they go.”
I feel myself and hope to be pressing more and more into Christ as I walk this path. Amen.