Search me, O God, and know my heart! Try me and know my thoughts! And see if there be any grievous way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting! (Psa 139:23-24)
This is one of the most important prayers we can utter. David knew this. The problem is our hearts can’t be trusted. Even when we become Christians we have blind spots, we have doubts, we have motives that are wayward. I heard one Pastor liken our intuition to a faulty map app. If it’s off it will lead us astray.
When I come to decision points in my live and/or experience struggles I almost immediately turn to the one person I’ve always been able to trust, or so I thought…that person being me. But God has given us something much better. He’s given us the church, the church filled with his Holy Spirit. He’s actually given us Himself. And when we pray this prayer we are asking Him to come into our lives, to speak to our blind spots, to bring us back from waywardness to His path. The Path that is everlasting. The Path to eternal life. That is the Path to Him.
I am in one such phase as I creep back into church leadership, wrought with fears of how it went last time. I want to be protected, I want to be loved, I don’t want to feel used. These are my fears, some legitimate. But being a Christian we have something far better. We have a God who IS our protection. We have a God who DOES love us and has demonstrated that to us through the Cross. And we have a God who invites us to lose our lives that we might gain them in Him.
This is a far better truth and reality than the do it your self, if you just believe enough, if you just have enough faith mentality. For one, even the faith we have is a gift (Eph 2:8-9). And so I’m praying that prayer and moving forward, trusting that God is good to fulfill his promises, to lead me in the way everlasting.