(PR) John 12:24

John 12:24

“Truly, Truly, I say to you, unless a grain of wheat falls into the earth and dies, it remains alone; but if it dies, it bears much fruit.”

This is such an amazing verse because it exactly explains what Jesus does with his life, and exactly describes what we all must do in this life as a Christian.  When we look at Rom 6, we see Paul teaching on this concept that we have been united with Christ in his death but not only in his death, more than that we have been united to him in resurrection.  (Rom 6:1-11)

What is amazing is that Jesus has explained this truth in one sentence and it will take Paul many chapters to expound on this truth, and many years for us to even get a glimpse at what it means.  This is a mystery…but it is true.

I am continually learning this truth in new ways.  Since I began fund raising I have seen ever more clearly the image of myself that I have set up in my mind and heart and have been worshipping it.  I knew it was risky to pray for humility and more faith and grace.  Perhaps I didn’t fully understand that much of that growth will come through trial and at times, despair.

I found myself at the feet of Jesus this morning pleading for help.  And he brought me to John 12:24.  And here I am again, learning to die to myself in new ways.  I am repenting (that is, turning back to Jesus) and putting to death my distrust in God, my dislike and discomfort of my current position and am fully laying myself before him with open hands.

It’s funny that I can tell when my heart is becoming hard.  For the last several weeks every time I read scripture it felt like just words.  I wasn’t feeling the spirit’s force behind every word, that I had come to enjoy every time I was spending time in the word.

The great thing about faith is that you don’t have to understand how this will happen or how this has happened.  I don’t know how I have died with Christ or am dying with Christ, but I can trust that it is true, because I can see change in my heart and in my life.  It is a change that is totally external to me, meaning that I am not doing it…scripture in conjunction with the Holy Spirit is doing it.

I am continually praising God that it is not left up to me.  That just as God sent his son, Jesus into the world, Jesus sends the Holy Spirit to comfort us, teach us, intercede for us, love us, convict us, reveal to us truth to us, to empower us to do his will.  And then we are sent into the world…to be light, to be those who are fully trusting Him and walking in faith, through encouragement and discouragement.

And so, to go completely against worldly wisdom, God would you help me die.  Jesus would you kill the parts of me that aren’t trusting you, that aren’t loving you, that aren’t loving others through you.  Holy Spirit will you put to death the parts of me that are worshipping me.  Redirect my heart, I pray.

Your servant…more than that, your child.

Rom 8:32 “He who did not spare his own Son but gave him up for us all, how will he not also with him graciously give us all things?”

(PR) Clarity

Hey all,

If you could be praying for clarity for me.  Feeling attacked right now on the path that God has laid before me.  Going through some life change with GCM and still interning at the church and so there is a lot of uncertainty.  Please pray that God would make it clear what he would have me do.  And that I would let God work through me.

GCM approved!

Hey all,

Well, after an intense week of training, it is official; I have partnered with Great Commission Ministries.  Praise God.  We went through 8 days of 12 hour training sessions.  Who would have thought there was that much to teach.

But I learned a ton and am excited and scared at the same time.  Please be praying for peace of mind for me and trust in God for raising up a team of support.

This is all about Him.  I love this verse that Elise pointed me to months ago:

Proverbs 30:8-9

“give me neither poverty nor riches; feed me with the food that is needful for me, lest I be full and deny you and say, ‘Who is the Lord?’ or lest I be poor and steal and profane the name of my God.”

(AP/PR) The Holy Spirit Convicts

A friend of mine calls me the other night to tell me that his laptop has been stolen from Church. Unfortunately this is not the first time this has happened, and some wonder why we need security at Church. Though this particular instance we had a pretty good idea who the perpetrator was.

The funny thing is that the thief left his phone number with another guy at the church. The thief turned out to be a friend of ours that we had known for some time who has struggling with a lot of things. My friend gives this guy a call and tries to get him to confess but he doesn’t.

I ran over to the church to chat with him then headed home, praying that the holy spirit would convict this guy and that he would confess and return the laptop. It turns out, after about an hour of phone tag and threatening to call the police the guy finally confessed, and we picked the laptop back up a few days later.

And in that little operation of conviction and confession there is hope. My friend and I have been praying for this fellow for sometime, but he seems to just be straying further and further from God. Yet God saw it fit to work in his heart.

Please continue to pray with us that God would save this man. If turned he could be a great help to the cause of Christ. May Jesus “flip the script” on Him, and may he come Home. Amen.

(PR) Re:Train Next Year

Please be praying for my application I am about to send in. Please also pray that God would reveal to me which program to take. Re:Train now offers a Masters in Biblical and Theological Studies or a Masters in Missional Leadership. I’m not sure as of now which one to apply for and have been praying, please join me. I plan on turning it in by next Wed.

(PR) – An Old Friend Pt 2

So my friend from the Navy arrived today in Seattle. We hung out for a bit and caught up. I’m really looking forward to praying with him and taking him to Community Group and Church on Sunday. Please be praying that God does a mighty work in his heart. I’m excited to see what God will do. Amen.

(PR)- GCM Update

So I think I submitted the fastest application ever to GCM. Feeling God’s Favor… I have my interview next week for admission into the Program. Please be praying that this would be God’s will, and if not for me to have the heart to accept it. GCM is Great Commissions Ministry. This would serve as an umbrella organization to allow me to raise support in a more formalized and accountable manner.

(PR) – My Heart in support

Please being praying that my heart would be in the right place.  As humbling as it is to ask anyone for support, pride tends to seek in after people actually give.  Pray that I would continue to be humbled, and truly see His giving and His Provision, as my Daily Bread.  I am in this for His glory, not mine.  Amen.

Deut 8:17-18

“Take care lest you forget the Lord your God…lest when you have eaten and are full and have built good houses and live in them, and when your herds and flocks multiply and your silver and gold is multiplied and all that you have is multiplied, then your heart be lifted up, and you forget the Lord your God…Beware lest you say in your heart, ‘My power and the might of my hand have gotten me this wealth.’  You shall remember the Lord your God, for it is he who gives you power to get wealth”

(EOG/PR) An Old Friend

So I came across an old friend a couple weeks ago.  A guy I knew in the navy.  He is a Christian but has kind of been waning in his faith of late.  Well God decided to reconnect us and now he’s coming to visit Seattle in a couple weeks.  I’m super excited to be able to reconnect and pray with him, and also get to take him to Mars Hill.  Please be praying that God blesses our time, and does a mighty work in his heart.  Amen.

PR- Possible GCM Opportunity

It may be possible to go to the GCM training in May instead of September (right after the wedding).  GCM is Great Commissions Ministries which acts as an umbrella organization for people that raise support.  They only have the training three times a year, and you have to go to it before you can become a part of the org.  I called them yesterday and they are checking on the possibility.  This would be amazing since the dead line was Feb 15th for applicants.  Please Pray with me that God’s will be done.